Insomnia

I don't remember sleeping anymore,

The world just turns off and then on again,

I keep wandering through any open door,

Walking on that deserted lane.

I don't remember thinking anymore

Questions of what if and what not,

The days pass by and I keep chasing,

With oblivion, I have cast my lot.

I don't remember searching anymore,

For joy or pain, love or hate,

I don't now have any desire to soar,

Just drift on the gentle gusts of my fate.

I don't remember hoping anymore,

Hope is for people with expectations,

All I have in place now is a rot in my core,

An absolute emptiness and strange infestations.

I don't remember living anymore,

I have seen life, all I have is imitation,

Nothing helps, not money, drugs or education,

No desire, no love, and no ultimate motivation.