Meet me in Montauk

I wish I could forget you,

As easily as you forgot me,

And clean up every last drop,

And memory of your being.

Throw away the moments,

And wipe away the heartbeats,

Wash away the colours,

And all the prints of your feet.

I wish we had never met,

And so I would never know you,

Nor would I know the pain,

Of the blankness of your eyes.

The way you just ignore me,

The way you just dismiss,

The way you run over my love,

And not even know you kill.

I will erase you,

As completely as you erased me,

I will forget you,

As you really have forgotten me.

The songs will all fade out,

And the roses wither away,

The pages of my sketchbook torn out,

Forget everything we ever said.

But still a part of you remains,

That I cannot remove,

A part of you stays,

And it will never move.

It calls out to me,

In abandoned houses we leave,

It whispers as everything else is blocked,

It says to me, “Meet me in Montauk”.

So I will meet you again for the first time,

In the white sands and rainy beaches,

We’ll lie down together in icy lakes,

Look up at the stars and make up their names,

And if you’re afraid how different would it be,

When it comes to it, I know you’ll see,

You will whisper to me when everything else is blocked,

Will forever say to me, “Meet me in Montauk”.

A sort of tribute to the film, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.

For you

Only for you,

I climb onto the sun,

And make every ray just a bit more pretty,

As it shines for you,

Only for you.

Only for you,

I hold onto the clouds,

And squeeze out every drop of happiness inside,

And make them fall for you,

Only for you.

Only for you,

I argue with sounds,

And bargain for every one of them to be your melody,

As music flows for you,

Only for you.

Only for you,

I pray to your gods,

And wish to have faith in whatever you do,

As I believe for you,

Only for you.

Only for you,

I read about the past,

And fight for a future all of our own,

As time adjusts itself for you,

Only for you.

Only for you,

I look at the world,

And realise the darkness that it is saved from,

As light shines for you,

Only for you.

Only for you,

I live my life,

And take every breath to breathe in your scent,

As I exist for you,

Only for you.

My first post and completed poem (well if you could call it that) after I got my first job. Inspired in part by the really beautiful lyrics to Tere Liye by Gulzar (even though this isn't fit to lick the boots of that song, just seemed wrong if I didn't give credit)

Whispers I

How is it that I have so much to say to you,

And no way to say it once I see you?

How is it that my eyes search for you everywhere,

But when they find you they're unable to stare?

How is it that you are so beautiful to me,

And this I can never truly make you see?

How are you so intelligent and perceptive,

Yet so oblivious and ignorant to how I feel?

I have reached a nadir, I think. Of just posting anything that comes to mind. But meh.

Shallow Gods

The story of this world, this life,

Can be told and explained in a few simple lines,

The day you're born, they make you sign,

"What's yours is mine, what's mine is mine."

The rest of this farce plays out in one way,
It keeps getting clearer with each passing day,
It's pretty obvious, I do have to say,
Everyone is bloody selfish in their own bloody way,

It becomes your duty to do their jobs,
If you refuse, you'll drown in their sobs,
Hurtling to their quicksands of grievances,
Crucified by their one man mobs.

Gods of their own shallow worlds,
Their fiefdoms of false self worth and pride,
Be shameful heretic, if you think to fight,
Be grateful mortal when you're on their side.

No Hard Feelings

Look at me once, look at me now,
Stop, smile, wait, and decide how,
How you feel about me,
How you want me to be,
I'll break every barrier, and swim every sea,
I'll change for you, no one to stop me, no force,
Whatever you decide, I'm yours, I'm yours, I'm yours,

I stayed up so many nights for you,
Wasting away in the dark, finding new things to do,
To get through your defences, these walls you've built around,
Your friends, your prejudices, your likes, your dislikes, your sight and sound,
For you I made myself better, without you I'm lost, one look and I'm found,
I wait on your every word, every move, every laugh , every sigh,
With every smile I die a thousand deaths, I die, I die.

And I knew
From the first smile, I knew
That I'll bow down to you,
And your tyrant eyes,
Make me laugh when they do,
Make me cry when they do,
I've become a slave to your eyes,
A puppet to your smile
I knew
From the first look and the first words,
I was over,
I was sentenced,
I was damned.

And when you refused, I was lost,
I met the wall I couldn't have crossed,
Everything so unimportant and bleak,
I can't have you, loneliness I seek,
And I wasted away in the dark for weeks,
But then I realize, maybe you're not worth the strife,
And I don't know if you know, but I'll survive, I'll survive.