Exams and professions

It's funny. It's mortifying. When exams come around, the feelings one goes through.

I've never been a person who worries about exams or the result. I've never felt crushing disappointment when I've done badly, nor boundless joy when I've done well (not too many times). And my emotions are just migrating towards the mean point as the days go by. There are no sleepless night nowadays even when my preparations aren't all that good, no confident strutting around when I know I'm going to do well. It's just one series of boring and indifferent reactions to the whole concept of going there and writing those few words in the papers provided, which are oh so important. And they probably are. But it just doesn't get the adrenaline flowing any more.

Why? Maybe because I am not yet sure what I want to do in my life. And should I be sure? I have no idea. Probably. I mean it has to be the ideal situation if you know what you're going to do for the rest of your life when you've just about finished 20% of it. I don't though. I'd like to drift along for another 2-3 years or so, but I can't and that's just the long and short of it. And therefore I'm off to join the scores and scores of engineering hopefuls that my country is producing by the buckets.

But what else is there though. I'd like to write for my food, journalism being the most obvious choice then as a profession. I'd like to travel as well, so the journalism thing still is a winner. But it doesn't pay all that much now, does it? Not really. And I'm not sure I can sit on a fence as much as being true to my profession would require.

Oh well, when I write the next time, my immediate future would probably have been decided. And I probably won't be able to change it for some time now. And that scares me more than exams ever have.

Absence

Yes, I've been absent from my blog for quite some time now. A lot of factors played their part for my untimely and unfortunate departure from these blessed pages. Because the blog was 'found' by people I was hoping this would be a secret, not to be seen, because I am just extraordinarily lazy, because I knew not many people would be holding their breath waiting for my next post (in case, anyone did, my apologies and condolences), and also because I plain forgot about this place.

But now that I've kept a sufficiently low profile for the last 6 months or so, I'm ready for a comeback and ready again to write the crap that only I can write, and only I and a few very unfortunate souls read, who stumble upon my lair. My heart goes out to them, brave martyrs.

Goodbye.

PS - If I don't actually post regularly and disappear again and this was just a premature attempt at a comeback, I'd advise not waiting with bated breath. Lung problems are sure to follow.

Absence

Well, yeah, I have been absent from the blogger world for sometime now. Because I was 'found' by people I know, people I wanted this place to be a secret from, because I was too lazy, because I couldn't find something to write about, because I know not many people actually read my blogs, so I wouldn't actually be missed, and also because I had forgotten about this place.

But right now, I think it's safe to make a comeback. I've kept a sufficiently low profile this long, so I doubt anyone would be checking on the blog nowadays. So, I hope I'll be churning out a few posts from now on with more regularity than I've done so far. You probably hope the opposite (well I'll be damned if I know why you are reading this then), so we're all in agreement. Sort of.

No that didn't make sense...... or did it? D'oh!